Person's life, will have this or that dream, I was no exception. Young I have described many times in the dream of the future look like his wife, have met many times in the street girl who frequently look back Kexin. Then , my future wife will be portrayed as gentle, kind, the total nestling in my arms but every possible care of my door sister, gentle, female teachers of English, have in my feelings of the young bursts of ripples on the lake Yang Qi Lek.
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dream is always a dream, a dream offer all kinds of good dreams break shock Suixin .18 years old, I was admitted to a region of a Normal. because there is no dream, met the girl, I fled the love. university graduate, I was assigned to a rural schools in southern Hunan. With a beard on the lips thicker every day, unable to bear a gradually aging parents.
they know that half of households living in rural areas hard teacher, it is worried for my marriage to my 24 years old, I wandered in despair and into the love of.
girlfriend is a female teacher with the school, plain, always quiet, a quiet and what is expected of girls. under the auspices of the colleagues We fell in love. in good faith to contact six months later, she proposed marriage.
Marriage is a major event in life, I have to be careful. I am Looking back again and again girlfriend, his girlfriend is too ordinary, too mundane, and far from my mind wife. I feel my heart filled with bouts of pain: Should I go looking for. but think of the intersection with her six months, she was ordinary, but the Chinese woman's gentle, virtuous, hard-working qualities of all she has. If to marry her, my life will certainly be quiet and happy. I finally chose the reality, hugged her into the marriage hall.
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wedding night is the most memorable moments. Warm the wind blows, there is a feeling of Living. away after the last wave of guests and slightly tipsy wife, I gently back into the bridal chamber clutch.
really should be br> I do not know how much time, my wife is still slightly closed eyes, his face flush fly bursts, like one lying on Venus. can not help being, my hand slowly swim to the wife's secret place. < br> is the first time, may be shy. I whisper again leaning in the past. wife showing uncomfortable expression on his face: thought, is a critical moment, they have met his wife nervous. looked at his wife for fear of some pale face, I stand down. That night, my wife has not freed from the tension. I gently try to tell the wife of one side , while with a sigh.
the next day, the third day, his wife has been very nervous. When I touch her, she kept shaking, sometimes biting his lips, I had to give up.
The fourth night, I finally not survive the temptation hard to overwhelming in his wife's body. With his wife crying tone burst with a scream, we combine.
It was a kind of sex! wife as if in a coma for the past, purple lips, eyes closed, shaking hands guarding the lower body, blood oozing from the cracks means. I was scared senseless, and I hurt his wife.
cage in the shadow of My wife and I quickly head. day We Double, trying to smile onto the face, make a couple of happy and harmonious. evening, his wife got into early quilt, tightly wrapped body, so I had to and the clothes lying on the side. newlywed us no sex.
middle of the night, I was suddenly awakened by his wife. wife owned was sitting, his eyes red and swollen, like crying.
wife.
> At that time, his wife was 12 years old. One day, she went to the mountains to fight pig grass as usual, in the midst of grass, she saw a figure in the rock. bewildered among the scenes in front of her exposure: two naked men and women lay there hugging. young wife was shocked, instead, a kind of shyness and aversion in my mind, she Huangde baskets are not even run back down the mountain. At that time, Nannvzhishi in her heart to become an ugly. With the onset of puberty, she can somehow change the psychological, sexual, and slowly positioned in her mind the worst thing a human world. She obnoxious, then fear of sex. For my touch, it is horror-stricken. wife of some frustration.
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I know, my wife is because of psychological problems fishes fear sex. Sex is a normal part of life. how can I do? looking pining wife, I felt a pang of guilt, we here there is no psychiatrist.
So, I asked about knowledge of books to his wife to see; night, I tried to touch his wife, his hands gently stroked her sensitive areas, let her try to have passion, to eliminate the fear of sex, slowly feel the sex appeal; I gave her some knowledge of sex, tell her of not ugly, is married life in a normal and important part of It can communicate with both emotion and narrow the distance between us can do it in harmony. I want to help establish a healthy sex wife ideas.
However, with the touch of my preaching is not working. Every time I touch his hand lightly wife, she does not always consciously clamping legs, for fear I once again a gross violation. slowly, with his wife to give up my efforts.
wife looked slightly pale and sorrowful face, I gave up Further touch. I do not have the heart to his wife to do something she does not want to do.
Yes, married couples, sex is a mutual right and obligation to each other. As a wife, she was obliged to let my husband enjoy rights, but as a husband, I feel a greater obligation to love the warmth of her. I do not want to be happy on their desire to build on the psychological pain of his wife. Sex is gender gracious, not only physical, but also spiritual The.
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our lives without sex.
Six months later, I signed a village school to go to support education, I want to stay away from his wife. perhaps, from the interval would dilute my Yulai the more intense requirements.
wife is very aware of my move, but could not, she does not like a normal women generally give my normal sex. She quietly to see me off, every week there is also a token to look at me, give me laundry, cooking and fulfill the obligations of a wife.
our marriage is in a difficult, sad predicament.
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day, like a weekend, my hands upon her a want to take home to his wife to see. This book is a magazine subscription I have deliberately, I imagine it to change by the wife.
opened the door, his wife in bed fully clothed, clutching his face with the quilt.
, is the love letters, addressed to me.
This is my university written by a female classmate. go to college, this girl has been like me, at graduation, but also for the separation and cried. but then, I was not tempted. thought, this attachment never married the girl. Last year, she did not know where I heard from My wife and I separated, to support education to another place, with special sensitivity of women, she seemed to sniff something, my love of passion and fire. Some time ago, she had written to me twice. In view of the loyalty of his wife, I never wrote back. do not want to, this time she goes as far as the letter sent to the home, the letter has landed wife's hand.
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